Days go by, and still I think about you

I am fairly fond of the title for this post as it does two things. It’s an open invitation to spam crawlers and this is the first blog post in some time with more than a code snippet or two.

In short, it has been almost a year since I’ve graduated Full Sail University and since then I have had a number of experiences that made me on numerous occasions question the validity of my life-choices. This stems from the idea of immediate sacrifice and delayed gratification towards a brighter and happier future. This for most is an accepted part of life and being successful. While ultimately we all strive for happiness and each time we sacrifice and give we hope it to be a means to an end. Of course as we grow older we slowly but surely realize the real cynical nature of human life.

I’ve asked myself on occasion; what makes me happy? Is it having a high paycheck? Is it the process of creating video games? Is it sitting at a bar? While I’ve questioned my motives, I always arrive at the same answer sooner or later. I realize that I simply wish to be challenged and learn. At the core that is what drives me! That is what motivates and inspires me. Still I’ve never been able to make the jump to a full time Indie, or a commit towards academia.

In the near future I hope to reevaluate why I have failed to follow my real agenda. Attain courage, and achieve some closure.

This is essentially a slightly longer twitter post. Thanks for reading.